Girl with kaleidoscope eyes

And my ex is proving to be the same and proving that he has not changed like I thought he has.  He is pulling the same bullshit he did when we were dating.  I was supposed to see him  today at three.  Well, it is almost twelve.  I texted him at ten this morning and still have not heard from him.   I know he is up, he wakes up early every morning.  Whatever, I’m going out with my girlfriends instead and listening to Skrillex while drinking a vanilla chai tea.  It makes everything better. <3

I hung out with my ex boyfriend of ten months last night.  It was the first time I saw him in a year.  I thought I hated him but when I saw him all those old feelings came rushing back.  I got to look into his amazing eyes again, and he held me again and kissed me again.  I fell so hard last night again.  This is so hard.  He’s become a totally different person and I think it’s for the better.  I don’t want to get my hopes up though.  Maybe this is a sign though.  Maybe, we are meant to be together.  Because, for some reason, when we were hanging out last night, it was like nothing ever changed, like we never broke up, like we were still in love.  I think we are meant to be but it could just be me.  I will always, always love Josh, even though he hurt me so badly.  He will always have a place in my heart.  I’m probably seeing him tomorrow.  I can’t wait to be back in his arms <3.