Girl with kaleidoscope eyes

    1. a photo of your first kiss
    2. a photo of you drunk
    3. a photo of your favorite article of clothing
    4. a photo of you sleeping
    5. a photo of your crazy sock collection
    6. a photo of your scars
    7. a photo of a childhood friend you wish you could find
    8. a photo of your feet
    9. a photo of your most embarrassing moment
    10. a photo of your scariest moment
    11. a photo of you laughing
    12. a photo of you and an animal
    13. a photo of your favorite dance move
    14. a photo of your at your proudest
    15. a photo of you naked
    16. a photo of you with someone who is no longer alive
    17. a photo of you as a child
    18. a photo of you stuffing your face with pizza
    19. a photo of what moves you so much emotionally that you have to take a     minute
  20. a photo of how you’d like to spend every day
 21. a photo of you and your best female friend making out all over the place
 22. a photo of your tattoos and piercings with explanations
 23. a photo of how you’d like the world to see you
 24. your favorite photo that you’ve taken
 25. a candid photo of you
 26. a photo of you and your last boyfriend or guy you dated
 27. a photo of your “office”
28. a photo of you upside down in your favourite skivvies
29. a photo of you underwater
30. a photo of something you’ve only ever dreamed of

This is the last day of this thirty day challenge!!  I do feel differently in a sense.  My life has not gotten any better nor has it gotten any worse..  I feel like I reflected on things I needed to reflect on.  It was good for me!

Well, if we are talking about dreaming in a literal sense, as when I go to bed and am sleeping, I dream about a lot of different things, weird things, real things that happen in my life, etc.  I know we are talking about dreaming in a different sense though.  Like, what I want to do with my life, etc.  I dream a lot about finding someone who loves me and someone I love (I’m not going to lie)  I feel like I would be a lot happier if I had a man who I was truly in love with, but it isn’t a reason why I’m NOT happy, because, I am happy.  I dream about the future, even though that does make me sad a bit.  I honestly can’t say what is going to happen in the future, but then again, who does?  I dream about life, fake things that I wish would happen.  I dream about seeing Shane, and having him in my life and not just on the phone, he is my best friend, you know (I wrote a post about him a while ago, feel free to read it).  I dream about warm places when it snows this much (we had a blizzard last night), I dream in color and I dream in love and life and happiness.  I love to dream.

What inspires me?   My family and friends.  Without them, I would be nothing.  I am lucky to have one of the most amazing people in my life and I am so so sooo grateful for it!  Secondly, music inspires me.  People like Jim Morrison, John Lennon, Jimi Hendrix, Bob Marley.  All of those musicians; who, are so intelligent and lyrical geniuses, they make for a better world.

Wow, this is one of the hardest questions I’ve ever had to answer.  There is not one day that comes to mind but many memories.  I feel as if every day gets better and better.  One fond memory I have is the day my mother came home from he last day of radiation and chemotherapy.  My mother got diagnosed with breast cancer when I was around 12.  It was hard times but when she had her last treatment it was one of the happiest days of my life and her life.   Another happy moment in my life is when I went to see N*Sync, it was my first concert, I know, I know, kind of corny but I was happy and it was an amazing concert.  A third, fourth, fifth, and sixth happy memory is when I met Craig Owens (the lead singer of Chiodos) those 6 times.  They were my favorite band at the time and every time I kept meeting him the closer I got to him.  He even knew me by name!  There are so many more memories and happy times in my life that I just can’t keep writing or else I’ll have written a novel. 

Ok so, first I’ll give you some background info about this.  I work with this guy Steve, he’s been working at my job for two years, I’ve been working there a year in January.  We started chilling like 4 months ago, and we’ve liked each other.  We’ve gone through so much shit.  Rumors at work causing fights, etc.  I thought he was playing games for a while but turns out he backed away because he thought I liked someone else or so he says, whatever.  Anyway, we stopped talking for a few weeks but we’re talking again and things are getting better everyday.  So this conversation is from texts he sent me the other night after we hung out.  This is everything he said.

Steve- I really wanted to kiss you.

I said something along the lines of why didn’t you, it isn’t like we’ve never kissed…blah blah blah, I called him cute.

Steve- Lol…not as cute as you.

I said something along the lines of do you like me again and well you backed away and I don’t want you too this time, I really like you and I don’t want to get hurt.

Steve- I always did..but one of the reasons I fell back was because I really started falling for you and I got scared (then he says some personal shit I’m not going to say on here) and I want to do things right.  I will never hurt you..I’m always straight up with you and you know that.

I said something like I know I believe you.

Steve-I wouldn’t say back away sometimes people..like myself just need space to think and time for themselves and I get tired of people..but I would of been tired of you already that’s how I know your special…goodnight :* <3<3

So yeah, that is the conversation that makes me smile from ear to ear :]